Tomorrow is the day I start my full time mission.
I seriously think I understand why Jonha ended up in the belly of a whale rather than on his mission. This stuff is downright terrifying. My call letter says I have been recommended as one worthy to represent the Lord as a minister of the restored gospel. Trying to represent the only perfect person on earth is a pretty scary thing when your just a young little human. So scary that right now running away sounds pretty nice, even if that meant ending up in the belly of a really big fish.
A lot of people have asked me if I'm afraid to go to Africa, to leave my friends and family, or the culture and language I've grown up in. The truth is, I'm not afraid of that at all. What really turns me into jelly is wondering how I will ever be worthy enough to wear the name of my Savior right above my heart and always do as He would do.
I don't feel worthy, I just feel weak.
Unlike Jonha however, I have the internet, and have access to an amazing talk by Brad Wilcox entitled. '
His Grace is Sufficient'. If you haven't read that talk, PLEASE DO. It changed my whole perspective on weakness and God's Grace. Its too good of a talk for me to sum up, so I wont even try. So go listen to it. like now. right now... seriously go.
I have listened to that talk so many times that I can almost recite it from memory. So when my doubts, sins and imperfections seem to drown me and convince me that I can't serve, Wilcox's voice is in my mind saying, "Oh, young people, don’t quit. You keep trying. Don't look for excuses and escapes. Look for the Lord and His perfect strength." That perfect strength has rescued me so many times. The picture in this post is my favorite picture of the Savior. Christ has already saved me in so many ways and His hands are still outstretched, waiting to rescue me. He has never left me alone. I don't think I can express how much I love him and how thankful I am that I know Him.
Because of all that Christ has done for me, I want to give Him my life. Even if that gift isn't anything very impressive.
Less than 24 hours until I enter the MTC!
- Krysta McClellan
